It has been a very long time since
I last wrote a post. Plenty of things have gone on in the past month, and I
will lay it out in this post.
This
person
“This person” is a colleague of mine about whom I wanted to
write a long while ago. A truly wonderful person, if you ask me. Before I
describe more, I should let you know that I don’t know “this person” very well.
I have formed my opinions based on my few interactions over the past few
months. Now that we are done with the disclaimer, I proceed to describe “this
person”. I’m not even going to bother with a physical description. The first
thing that struck me about “this person” is how positive he/she is. Fantastic
positive attitude and a smile on his/her face every damn time. I don’t think I
have ever seen “this person” without a smile on his/her face. I know for a fact
how difficult this is, having tried and failed at it miserably. And “this person’s”
smile is infectious as well. Work wise, I don’t know. “This person” might be
brilliant, may not be. But the most important thing is that he/she is well known
and respected throughout engineering department. What “this person” does best
is portray that he/she is always happy. How I wish I had that skill! I tip my
hat to you, dear “this person”. You are truly an inspiration, albeit in a
different sense.
Arsenal,
keyboard, languages
Arsenal have not been in good form lately, winless in their
last two Premier League games at home! But an encouraging win against
Bournemouth raised hopes of a win against the in-form Leicester City in a title
6 pointer at the Emirates. I didn’t watch the game live but only saw the
replay. It was one hell of a match, a must watch live one. Nothing beats a 45th
minute penalty to the away side to a dubious call by the consistently stupid
referee, a superbly worked goal in the 70th minute by a substitute
to spark the game into life and a 95th minute winner by a player who
has been out for 10 months due to injury to seal the win in the most
spectacular fashion. I so badly wished I had watched this game live. But hey,
it is ok. I had fun at the movie as well.
I made
some real progress in the keyboard, finished that difficult song (BTW it was a
Coldplay song; many people recognized the song while I was playing it.) Now I
am onto a John Lennon song, which isn’t that difficult. Need to pick up speed
though.
I have
stagnated in my quest to learn languages though. I am not really getting enough
time to go through the book and Duolingo is not really going at a good pace. But
on the bright side, I can understand 60% of what they say on the radio. Quite a
big leap if you ask me. Italian radio has also helped diversify my music
choices.
Novel
The Jack Reacher novel series is
turning out to be quite good, I am on my third book already. There is an aura
to the character that is very intriguing. He has also learned from his
mistakes, which points to character evolution. Do find time to read one of Lee
Child’s books from this series if you enjoy the action/thriller genre.
Depression
Let us go into some dark stuff now. This is serious stuff. I
think (I’m not sure, never am) I have been suffering from depression for the
past 3-4 months (at least, though I suspect more).
How does it feel?
It feels sad, inexplicably sad. You feel very negative. You
feel like not doing anything, then feeling bad about not doing anything. This
is just the beginning. Unwanted thoughts enter your head. It becomes difficult
to control your temper. It changes your behavior towards others, I have
experienced this myself. Activities that you used to enjoy seem dull and
boring. You are fleetingly in control of your thought process and even half of
those thoughts are negative, maddening and frankly alarming. My behavior towards
some people has been very poor. I have been very cold towards people who were
very warm to me. I haven’t got to apologize to them yet, but I plan to.
What is the cause?
There is no definitive cause as much as I can say. Life
events can trigger depression. It can happen to anyone and I don’t think anyone
is truly safe.
What do you do?
First thing is that you realize that what you are feeling is
not normal. Go to a psychiatrist and get it checked. And then find someone to
talk to. This is the most important part of getting out of the hole. If you
think there is no one you can talk to, well, there is one person whom you can
share this with J
Try not to be alone. Find a hobby. Do something that keeps
your mind off your worries. That is the least I can say.
Trips
April and June are months when I am taking vacations to
travel the country. The plans have been made, tickets for the April trip have
been booked and I am very much looking forward to getting away from the mundane
life here and enjoy completely. Let us see how it goes.
Valentine’s
Day
When I started writing this post it was Valentine’s Day. For
me, it was just another Sunday. Not special by any means. I think the concept
of V-day is quite stupid. I mean, every day should be V-day. Celebrate love
every damn day. Why do you need a specially marked day in the calendar to tell
you that you need to pamper your lady?
I saw the movie Deadpool on Sunday.
I found it quite hilarious, though the people sitting beside didn’t feel so. The
director had deviated from a winning formula and nailed it. It was totally
worth the time and money. For movies like this, I can give time. Not for those
standard templated Bollywood movies with no real story and humor.
I guess this is it for the week.
Next week, there is the Champions League game against Barcelona. Let us see
what happens there. I am not optimistic, but hey football can find ways of
surprising you. Actually life finds interesting ways to surprise you. So, bye.
Take care. Enjoy.
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